After what should have been a month break but turned into almost a two year hiatus, I am now ready to start blogging again. During my time away, a lot has changed. I have unlearned and relearned some things. I relearned who I was in Christ and I grew as a writer by taking limits off the gift God gave me. I surrounded myself those limits because of fear and other people’s opinions.
Did I plan to be away from my blog for so long?
However, life got the best of me and my time. It nearly stripped away my passion. There were times I tried coming back, but there was still something keeping me from being consistent. I lost my voice. Figuratively speaking, I kind of let my identity slip through my fingers.
If you’ve been following me since the very beginning of my Christian blog (I had 2 other blogs prior; fashion and poetry), I was very consistent and into posting blogs and vlogs; something happened in 2016. Something called sin seeped back into my life and condemnation surrounded me. It caused me to feel guilty, ashamed, and unqualified to use my voice. Since then, I have been trying to get my voice back and get my passion back. Well, honestly the passion never left, again, I just didn’t feel worthy to because of a huge mistake I made.
Then I was reminded that God knew the mistakes I was going to make before I knew it, and yet He still chose me. He still trusts me to use my gift to bring glory to Him. Even my mistakes will somehow bring glory to Him. God can use me even when I feel like I disqualified myself because of my disobedience and short coming. It’s not by my own strength, might, power, and resources but it is through Christ. See, I was not only condemning myself for nearly two years, but I also was not trusting in God’s Word. Once I repent, Jesus forgives and remembers not my sin. I could have continued walking in my assignment if I truly believed, but the devil and his condemnation kept me bound and stuck. Repentance keeps us connected to God when we fall short. If I am a child of God, then I am His. My identity is not my past mistakes, it’s who I am in Christ. Fear no longer has its grip on me. Condemnation is no longer my god.
So, if you have been sitting on a gift, an assignment, or whatever God has led/call you to do but you feel you made too many mistakes or feel unqualified this is for you. Do not let your past define your future. Do not let your mistakes keep you in hiding from the Father. You can reach people who can relate to what you have been through. God can still use you and wants to use you. He created you, knowing that you would fall, He DIED for you, knowing you would still fall. And yet, He created you with a purpose and placed a gift inside of you. Don’t let the devil keep you stuck and in disobedience.
With that being said, I decided that after almost two years of a hiatus, I am ready to blog again. This time with my new found identity, my redefined voice, and with a revived vision. I am semi-relaunching my site and I am pretty excited. I kept waiting for the perfect time but in doing so I have been procrastinating. Sometimes you have to just JUMP BACK IN. (Or jump in if it’s something new).
So, for those who have followed me and wondered what happened to my blog, why I stopped blogging, now you know why. Life happened; but thank God I’m still here and able to try again.
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